I had great plans for tonight... Install my Vonage phone, file an amended tax return (forgot I had a job when I filed the first time, lol!), take a bath, do a herbal face steam, read my new Paulo Coelho book, maybe watch an Angelina Jolie movie I've had my eye on for two weeks...

Yup. I did none of those. I sat my ass in front of this screen and worked on my blog.

So, I may as well do what I was planning to do all week, and that is update you all. Right after I told J of my aches and pains with the waiting for this adoption while pumping milk she called me and was tremendously reassuring and patient. She was kind and generous with her time and sensitivity, which really made me feel like I had climbed into a warm lap, secure and content.

J thinks this will go quickly still, she recommended I keep up the pumping and pack my bags! Supposedly we should have an approval from the Embassy today or tomorrow, and then they send it to Rwanda. It takes a few days to get there, but once it does that is the last place it needs to go before it goes to the courts! The approval there could be instantaneous since it already has the Embassy's approval. Time will tell. Cross your fingers.

I'm scared shitless (can't think of a better word to use at the moment). When "nothing" seems to be happening, I freak out that it never will happen. When it speeds up and there is evidence of progress, I freak out that it is happening. Either way, it is just plain scary. Whatever. At the end of the day it is just fear and never did hold me down much. I can move despite it.

But can you imagine? We may have our child soon!